As some of you know, I’ve been preparing to take my GMAT. Well… I took it.
First things first. Anxiety is a serious monster. On the morning of my exam, I refused to get out of bed. I literally watched the clock get closer and closer to my exam time. I knew I needed to leave home at 7:00 AM if I wanted to make it to my exam site on time… but 6:00 came, and I was still in bed. 6:30? Same thing. Finally, at 6:45, I mustered enough strength to text my dad “I need your help.” Thank God for his and my friends’ words that got me out of bed. I got ready and left home by 7:10 AM. Oh! I GOT LOST. But I made it to the site at a reasonable time.
For those of you who are unfamiliar with the GMAT, you’re given a raw score at the end of the exam. Certain portions of the exam still need to be processed and graded…but that’s the gist. And when I got my raw score, I was crushed.
The exam is difficult. For someone who has test anxiety, struggles with math, and doesn’t like to be in one place for too long… it was a nightmare! When I left the examination site that day, I felt defeated. I beat myself up for a while. (That’s part of the reason I’ve been gone for so long.)
“Maybe if I started preparing earlier.”
“What if I enrolled in classes?”
“Perhaps I didn’t put in enough hours.”
I’m not ashamed to tell you that I cried. A lot. That’s actually why I’m here. There are so many success stories circulating the internet…so many posts about exciting news. When I got my score, I felt like there was something wrong with me. But there isn’t. Not everyone excels on the first try. And there’s no need to suffer in silence. There is no need to suffer alone.
If you’re ever feeling down, like you don’t know where you’re going… remember this:
- Walt Disney was once fired from a newspaper because he lacked imagination.
- Steven Spielberg was rejected from a prestigious film school, which now has a building named after him.
- JK Rowling’s Harry Potter manuscript was rejected multiple times.
- Oprah Winfrey was fired from a news channel because she was unfit for television.
Failure is nothing to be afraid of. Use it as a catapult to the next step!
“Dust yourself off and try again.” -Aaliyah